December 26, 2017
Today is my 49th birthday. Crazy as it may sound, I stepped on the scale today and did NOT like what I saw. For the first time in my life I am in the 200's. I AM NOT HAPPY!!!!
I kinda knew it would not be good. But I did not know it was that BAD! I know what I have done to get me here and what I have not done to keep me from getting here.
I have got to get these things under control. I am really good a getting mad and starting to fix the problem. I am really bad at staying at it for the long hall. I know this. Today that has to change. I need a plan.
Planning is the easy part - because you don't have to do anything with the plan. Doing the plan is the hard part. Staying with the plan is the hardest part.
But I have to start somewhere, so today I start planning. I am not sure what that will entail exactly. But my weight gain has to stop now!!!!!!!!
Today's main goal is to be very careful what I eat and do, but also enjoy my birthday. Starting it off well. Drank my water and ketones. I have stepped on the scale - YUCK. I will take measurements shortly - not looking forward to seeing that either.
I also and going to set my plan up, and get ready to fully implement tomorrow.
I plan to blog about what I am doing and my successes and failures. This is very therapeutic for me. I have created this separate blog just for my journey. I have failed so many times, that I am not ready for others to see what I am planning or writing. I plan to eventually make them public, but for now, it is just for me.
Let's get this party started.