God is leading me down a path and on a journey I was not seeking or even asking for. I have known for a few years that God was preparing me for something, but I had no clue what it was. We live in an instant gratification society and I get caught up in it all the time. I want to know the answer right now. I don’t like to wait. I want it now,now, now. Yes, I sound like my students. It is so hard to sit and wait on His perfect timing. That wait was not one month or even one year – it has been over three years (almost four).
This journey will require me step out of my comfort zone and step out in faith to where He leads me. I have been praying for God to confirm to me that this is the path He has prepared. Over the last 27 days – He keeps saying yes over and over. Yet, I keep asking Him to confirm more. I am sometimes amazed how small my faith can be at times. I have taken some baby steps – still unsure. Well, not unsure – more scared, nervous, intimidated. I even took a little bit bigger baby step last week, with this step I still felt nervous but with a since of peace that I was headed the right direction. It is amazing how Satan knows when you feel nervous – he plays with it and messes with your head. I started thinking, “I can’t do this”, “It is too much”, “This is too hard”, “I don’t know enough”, “No one wants to hear you have to share”, “I’m not good enough”.
This morning, I woke with a very clear message that said,
“Just take the step, I am here with you.”
So I am taking the next steps in Faith. The first step was saying “I will follow where YOU lead me.” The second step was admitting that this is a little scary, but I know YOU are with me. The third, is a step of knowledge – which begins tomorrow.
I hope you will lift me and my family in prayer as we start down this path on an amazing journey prepared by my Father.