I didn’t want to write this blog post – pride issue. I have had some people talking to me lately about my blog and it did two things – one was to confirm that I am doing what God wants me to and the other is pride creeping in. I also had noticed a few bad habits in my healthy journey that had started creeping back into my life. I noticed it, corrected the problem, but did not want to make it known publicly – I was proud of what I was doing and did not want to let others know I had slipped up in an area – that is a pride issue. This morning I woke up with one word in my head – Everything. I kept hearing that over and over and over. I finally prayed – God – what do you mean? “Share everything” was the answer I got. I have prayed for forgiveness for my prideful spirit and was reminded that we are to walk humbly with our God – my journey – the good, bad and ugly are there to bring Him glory.
Over the last few weeks I have noticed a few bad habits creeping back into my life. The biggest for me is tracking and counting what I eat. I know that is something I must do in order to be accountable for what I am eating and to keep healthy portion sizes in check. I am not sure how long this has been going on. Old habits have a way of very slowly creeping back into my life. For this habit – it started with one evening not tracking what I ate for supper. Then a few days later, I didn’t track a day, then all of a sudden – I had not tracked for 1 ½ weeks. Same thing happened with my exercise – I was doing so well, then I did not do it one day and that turned into two. I would still walk, but I was gradually going down that slippery slope. Even worse – my bible study habits. I was not doing it everyday. What is worse to me is that I was telling myself that I needed to do my bible study/ quiet time, but was not doing it. I think I caught these things early, but if they kept on, they allow satan to slip into my heart/ mind.
Last night this was brought home by my son, Jon. I was so tired after work. I even had trouble just keeping my eyes open. I fixed and ate dinner, and then sat down. I decided that I would not go to church tonight. I told Jon I was not going, he bent down, put my shoes on my feet and said, "Don't let satan tempt you not go!" With that I said a quick prayer of repentance, asked for strength and headed out the door to church! What a blessing it was to praise our Lord and Savior with some wonderful high school students and then listened as 3 seniors shared about their stories! I was so blessed and rejuvenated by my time there.
Satan does this in our lives. I have seen it in my own life so many times. At first it seems like no big deal for you to do something you really should not do or not do something you are supposed to do. Our justification is that one day will not hurt. The problem is – it does hurt. It slowly changes our hearts and minds to stop, stall or continue something God wants in our lives. I was reminded of this in John 10:10, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy”.
That devil is a sneaky fellow. He can destroy all the good in our lives. He wants to ruin everything he can get his hands on. My heart and mind of off limits - there is only room for Jesus there. But I serve a God that is so much stronger! That verse is not finished, the whole verse reads, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I have come that they may have a life, and have it to the full.” God forgave me for everything and gave me the strength to get up and go to church. He also helped me with courage to write this blog.
Thank you God for helping me when I slip, forgiving me when I have a prideful heart, giving me a word to know what do, and reminding me daily of the blessings I have in this life. Thank you also for strength to go on when I am tired and giving me courage to be transparent.
Now on to walking, tracking and reading His word daily!
Blessings to all!